So as of late I think depression has sunken in more than usual. I find myself blogging and rearranging my facebook photos once Zoi falls asleep. I love Zoi so very much but of course it still upsets me that I just turned 21 and cannot do everything I'd like. But trust me it's better that way or else I would probably be an alchoholic. But you know what really pisses me off..? I try to have people over.. And not a soul but my sister in law wants to come over. Why? Is it me? What did I do to everyone? Yes I have a baby but that doesn't mean im not in need of a friend or a night out. Every weekend since I've turned 21 I have tried to make plans and they have turned to shit every weekend. What im trying to say is that I do have feelings, I do want friends, And I deserve a social life. And you know what I am just going to start going out by myself and meeting new people. All of you have a group of friends but why? It took me a while to figure out but it's because you all still hang out with the same people you did in middle school. How pathetic.. And to think I was thinking it was me. Nope it's you you're all immature and obviously very secure with it. So no I'm really not going to let it bother me any more. That's just silly of me and a waste of time and emotion. Again moving on.. In conclusion I love my baby, I am adult and I can go out on my own, I am a good friend & I am moving on!
Good riddance and good luck!
Good riddance and good luck!
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